So my MS has been bothering me lately. My hands have been tingling since about 3 weeks ago, before the wedding. I just thought it was because of the stress with it coming up so quick, and played it off. But now it’s been 2 weeks since the wedding and they’re still tingling.. I hate this. I hate it. The only thing that will probably fix this is if I do a treatment again, which consists of getting hooked up to an IV for a couple hours for 5 days in a row at the same time each day. I just took off a week of work with the wedding, now I have a new person I’m training so if I have to take off work, he can’t work either.. I don’t know. I’m so tired of having to put up with the way I feel and not being able to control it at all. I keep getting really tired and feeling depressed and down, and my husband doesn’t seem to even care.. or it’s just my negativity. Either way, it FUCKING BLOWS.

I have just been feeling pretty down lately, and no one seems to notice or care or ask me how I’m feeling. Or if they do, I of course try to play it off and give them the old “I’m okay”, and apparently that’s good enough for everyone. Either that or SOMEONE gets an attitude and doesn’t try to understand where I’m coming from, which makes things 2372482948792 times worse.

I’ve been wanting ice cream all night, but Chase has been on this health kick for a couple months, changing his major in school for nutrition/weight trainer or whatever, started taking pills and working out, then he stopped working out closer to the wedding, but now that it’s all over, he says “we’re going to do this for real now” which he says because he “wants us to be healthy”, of course I know that’s true, but the more he talks about working out and eating healthy, which is quite often, it makes me feel like he’s directing it right at me. Like hey, you’re pretty fat so I hope my working out/eating healthy rubs off on you. I was just taking a shower and he threw cold water on me, so I told him he could make it up by getting me some ice cream, he just said “you don’t need that”.. just the way he said it made me instantly upset. He says he didn’t mean it like he thinks I’m fat, he said it’s because he wants us to really follow through with eating better and not having anything bad. This is not what I want to do, it’s what HE wants US to do, but since apparently he’s in charge, he threw any of our food we had left that was “bad” in the garbage.

I’m sure I’m blowing this out of proportion, but I don’t have anyone to talk to, so I just needed to get it out. Sorry if you read this.

Recently started watching Blue Mountain State.. 

This show is so fucking funny. I wasn’t sure about it at first, but seriously, sad to hear it’s been cancelled. At least I’m only on Season 2 on Netflix.

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are an AMAZING person. You have so much to give and so much to live through. Trust me when I say I KNOW things are terrible sometimes, but you just have to keep your head up, always look UP when you’re feeling down. Have FAITH. You just have to believe things will get better, and they will. They absolutely will. Always remember, I’m here for you whenever you need anything. Ever. I love you, my new seester :) 

And PS, I totally read your blog when I actually get on here :D

My all-time favoritest movie ever ever ever. <3

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I can’t help it. I enjoy watching Jersey Shore and their craziness. But Vinny and Pauly’s relationship is so funny. It’s just like my relationship with my best friend. <3

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Flamingo lights are up, we can officially party now :) (Taken with instagram)

Flamingos (Taken with instagram)

To have and to hold… :) (Taken with instagram)

Anhauser-Busch Tour (Taken with instagram)

This picture is for Mema, she loves those Clydesdales (Taken with instagram)